I'm lazy and I don't want to go to school...

"Today I don't feel like doing anything...nanananana..."

I feel so lazy... I have this feeling since last three weeks. After I have receive messages that I have failed some of my courses then I feel so lazy and unmotivated to go to school.

"What's the point of going to school if I have failed my majour courses?" This is what I am telling to my self after knowing that I failed my courses! Tsk.

Well, after all it's my own fault. Hmm,is it really my fault? I don't think so. What I know is that I have given my best to all the requirements that I need to submit it just happen that I really need to go to Korea to attend a forum. A forum that will help me to increase my awareness about the situation of the environment and will increase my confidence in meeting young people around the world. Is it worthy to go to Korea in exchange of my academics? I can say YES, because it helped me to improve my personality, my knowledge on international relations and environment protection.

Although I have gained important experiences that I can use inmy life, I am still depressed with what had happened to my grades. It was my second time to experience getting lower grades in my entire university life.
All I want to do now is to ease the depression. I want to enjoy and just to finish my major. I felt bad because my dream to become an academic awardee in my graduation on 2013 already popped out. I don't have any chance to become cumlaude. So, what I'm doing now is praying to God to help me to move on and be optimistic with what had happened to my life as a university student.

It's not yet the end of everything. I will continue to study hard (even if some of the professors have favoritism... hahaha). I will continue to strive hard and to aim high. As what I ahve promised to my self before, NEVER GIVE UP!

I need to be motivated to go to school next week. Nah nah nah nah....